What Makes You Beautiful

you dont know you're beautiful

THAT'S WHAT MAKE YOU BEAUTIFUL

My Bitter Love Quotes

• sometimes in LOVE. its not being together that matters. but rather, her happiness. even if that happiness means you and her not being together and her being with someone else.

• in LOVE. disappointments happen because we look for it. we often forget that its LOVE that should find us.

• hindi naman mahirap magmahal ng iba. kaya lang ito nagmumukhang mahirap dahil hinahayaan nating mabihag ang ating sarili sa taong kailanman hindi maibabalik ang pagmamahal na inaasam

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TRACING OUR FAMILY TREE

yesterday, November 1 our family went to the cemetery. well duh. first we went Tatay Rustico E. Carada(REC)'s at Jardin de San Gabriel Memorial Park. after some time we decided to go to the old cemetery. there. our curiosity started to attack. and we asked questions about the names written in the tombstones.

• Buenaventura Montoya(BM)
• Victorio M Carada(VMC)
• Paciencia E. Carada(PEC)
• Avelina E Carada(AEC)
• Buena E. Monotoya (BEM)
• Dominico V Carada(DVC)

these are the names written in each tombstones. so we asked who is who. and how he/she is related to who.

              First, the relation of BM, PEC and BEM. BM is the first husband of PEC. during PEC's pregnancy, BM died. The person whom PEC is carrying is BEM. But unfortunately BEM arrived at an early death only few months after she was born. Second. PEC-VMC relationship. it is said the Carada clan is originally located in Laguna and Estebat(which is PEC maiden name) lives here in Silang. so we concluded that VMC went here to Silang and there he met PEC. PEC is VMC's second wife. VMC had 5 children from his first wife. PEC's first son with VMC is Atty REC, my grandfather. VMC and PEC's second child is AEC. unfortunately, again, AEC died after few months from birth. leaving REC the only son of VMC and PEC. PEC unfortunately died. VMC had his third wife and they had 3 children. so in total, VMC had 3 wives and 9 children. 

now for Atty Rustico Estebat-Carada's family

         REC married Zenaida B. Velazco, my supah loved grandmother. They had 8 children. Tottit Carada, married Belle Cruz. They had 2 children, Kaye and Miggy. The second child and the first daughter is Mari Paz V Carada, who is still single and my godmother. Third of the siblings is Col Kit Carada. His wife is Mareth Mercado. Francheth, Kenneth and Ayeth are their children. DVC is Kit's twin brother. unfortunately due to circumstances and complications that cannot be avoided during the pregnancy of the twin, DVC died the following day he was born/ The second girl child is my mom, Asela Carada. Marrying Arnel Feliciano and giving birth to us- Mc-ku, Ba-bi, Ranz-o, that's me, Czee-J and I-mari.  The fifth child is Ambie Carada. He married Noreen Luna. Aiyan and Mao is their offsprings. Next in line in this very big family is Gigi Carada. She met an American citizen and then became her husband, Donald Kelly. They are currently living in the United States. Bea and Mikaela is their two daughters. Geline Carada is the 7th and youngest daughter of Rusty and Zeny. He married Dingdong Ramos and Izee is their daughter. Last will be Victorio Jose Carada, the youngest son and child. He is also my godfather. He is presently working in Canada. Still single but we are hoping for a new member of the family.

TRIVIA

We are told the the Boy-Girl-Boy-Girl-Boy-Girl-Girl-Boy sequence of the children of ZenTy(Zeny+Rusty) is Tatay's prayer to the Lord our God. and God answered his prayer

and that's our story. 

THE CARADA FAMILY

College Courses

Oh I really find my subjects funny. Funny in a sarcastic kind a way. I want to laugh at it. Laugh in a sarcastic kind a way. My courses are really not new to me. I think only Philosophy, Business Administration and Humanities are new. The rest, its either I have encountered them in HS or at least I have a background. First, English. Subject-Verb Agreement. Spelling. Affixes. Who would have thought that these topics were very hard. These were easy before. WTF. I flunked the quizzes related to these. Next, Theology. Somewhat Religion I guess. But I can't apply a single thing I've learned from Religion I-IV in HS. Maybe some basics like the definition of Bible, Faith, Genesis, Exodus, you know the common and the values. But the others? No. Sad to say but I can't use them in this course. Well History.  All I can say is "course is easy especially when you can fool the prof". Filipino. Well I learned a lot of new things here. Very interesting. The EFF part is that "ang hirap ng ispeling ng mga salitang Filipino". Who would have thought that a pure blooded Filipino who grew in the Philippines will have problems with spelling in this course. College Algebra. Yeah review of HS Algebra. HS Algebra- very easy. Well it is easy indeed. But the given equations are like hell. Very complicated. Takes multiple trials to reach the final answer. Last. NS201: Biological Science. This subject is worse than worst. I used to love Biology. But taking this course makes me hate it a lot. I really don't have enough words to describe and tell you how iI feel this course. But these course really sucks. Its a big pain in the neck. Oh College. I LOVE YOU. Thank you for destroying my dream of being a DL. Thank you for the everyday stress. Thanks a lot. I love you so much. And to show you my love. I WILL FINISH YOU

Some Part Missing

Well I think it's quite a while. I've been having this feeling, maybe so long that I have to write about it. I am one of those carefree, wild, loud, outgoing type of a person. Whenever I say I'm an introvert, people who know me will always disagree. And I am not embarrass nor shy about it. I am proud to be an EXTROVERT type of a person. And this characteristics of mine is the main reason why I feel so down most of the time when I am alone and just thinking about my day. I can't feel nor be the extrovert me. And as much as I don't want to blame me as a corps man, but I just do. I can't have fun, bond as much as my other block mates bond with each other. I feel so left out. Everyday there is something I don't know for the reason that I was not there. I don't like it. I really don't. I want to be with them most of the time. I want to have fun with them. O don't want to be left out- just for the reason that I am a corps man. A dream come true that I am in a dorm. I deal with other people. Bur unfortunately, not what I expected. When I go home to where I am staying now, I have to study or I am just so tired and wanted to sleep. And these are the reasons why I can't, again, bond with my roommates too much. Boarders from the other rooms, whom they just met, are even closer to them. WTF! I feel so left out. It seems that I am JUST HERE. I am here to sleep. I really want to get closer to them. But how? I'm a corps man. I don't have the time. They say that it's good. I experience things other people will never experience. But these experiences are never seen by other people. And the experiences I miss is right in front of me. Shouting at me. I just can't be there. This really sucks. Sucks for me. I don't like these. I want the extrovert me. I want to make some noise and be loud and nobody cares. I miss myself. It seems that some part of me are missing. It seems that I am so incomplete. I feel left out. I feel incomplete. I miss the civilian life. I WANT THE CAREFREE, LOUD, NOISY FRANZ XAVIER C. FELICIANO  

This Wicked Feeling(Just Like Before)

Oh yeah. Freshmen in College. New life. New Beginning. New everything. And fool of me to expect to have a new love life. Its been a year or two since I got into somehow, I really don't know if I can call it like that, a RELATIONSHIP. Oh that Junior Year. And I just can't help myself and I don't know why I keep on remembering and comparing what is happening now to what happened back then. Yes, there maybe be some similarities but who am I to say that it will be the same just like before. Well, who won't. There are just too many similarities. First, I was first struck by her beauty- her white skin,  her long hair her cute smile and I find her physical appearance so perfect just like before. Next, she was liked by so many. My block  mates want to court her, and so do I just like before.  Another is I find it so hard to approach and start a conversation with her just like before. And I am so afraid to tell her how I feel towards, about and to her just like before. But unlike before, my friends are rooting for me. I got so many free time which I can give to a special someone. And I feel so confident about what I am doing and planning to do, which is the exact opposite to what is happening now. My friends are helping another friend of mine to court her. I am so busy being the lowest class in the UST-GCC which takes most of my free time. And I am so afraid to be rejected and/or thing to end up just like before. I am just not sure of myself.  Will I wait for some quite some time before I tell her how I feel just like before? What if, unlike before, she give in to "them"? One more thing, though it is still uncertain,will I or am I really willing to join a cruel game of love when a good friend of mine is involve? Oh this wicked feeling. I thought it is great that finally my heart beat to another, a new girl. But why am I feeling this way. I feel wanting to quit to something that I haven't tried or hasn't started. I feel so uncertain. I feel... I don't know. I really really don't know how and what should I feel. I really don't like what is happening to me. OH THIS WICKED FEELING.

THE FOLLOWING POSTS!

okay the 2 previous post were just a copy-paste of my articles in my Senior Year in High School. the next posts will be also articles/blogs which I wrote during the first semester of AY2011-2012. ENJOY!:D