College Courses

Oh I really find my subjects funny. Funny in a sarcastic kind a way. I want to laugh at it. Laugh in a sarcastic kind a way. My courses are really not new to me. I think only Philosophy, Business Administration and Humanities are new. The rest, its either I have encountered them in HS or at least I have a background. First, English. Subject-Verb Agreement. Spelling. Affixes. Who would have thought that these topics were very hard. These were easy before. WTF. I flunked the quizzes related to these. Next, Theology. Somewhat Religion I guess. But I can't apply a single thing I've learned from Religion I-IV in HS. Maybe some basics like the definition of Bible, Faith, Genesis, Exodus, you know the common and the values. But the others? No. Sad to say but I can't use them in this course. Well History.  All I can say is "course is easy especially when you can fool the prof". Filipino. Well I learned a lot of new things here. Very interesting. The EFF part is that "ang hirap ng ispeling ng mga salitang Filipino". Who would have thought that a pure blooded Filipino who grew in the Philippines will have problems with spelling in this course. College Algebra. Yeah review of HS Algebra. HS Algebra- very easy. Well it is easy indeed. But the given equations are like hell. Very complicated. Takes multiple trials to reach the final answer. Last. NS201: Biological Science. This subject is worse than worst. I used to love Biology. But taking this course makes me hate it a lot. I really don't have enough words to describe and tell you how iI feel this course. But these course really sucks. Its a big pain in the neck. Oh College. I LOVE YOU. Thank you for destroying my dream of being a DL. Thank you for the everyday stress. Thanks a lot. I love you so much. And to show you my love. I WILL FINISH YOU

Some Part Missing

Well I think it's quite a while. I've been having this feeling, maybe so long that I have to write about it. I am one of those carefree, wild, loud, outgoing type of a person. Whenever I say I'm an introvert, people who know me will always disagree. And I am not embarrass nor shy about it. I am proud to be an EXTROVERT type of a person. And this characteristics of mine is the main reason why I feel so down most of the time when I am alone and just thinking about my day. I can't feel nor be the extrovert me. And as much as I don't want to blame me as a corps man, but I just do. I can't have fun, bond as much as my other block mates bond with each other. I feel so left out. Everyday there is something I don't know for the reason that I was not there. I don't like it. I really don't. I want to be with them most of the time. I want to have fun with them. O don't want to be left out- just for the reason that I am a corps man. A dream come true that I am in a dorm. I deal with other people. Bur unfortunately, not what I expected. When I go home to where I am staying now, I have to study or I am just so tired and wanted to sleep. And these are the reasons why I can't, again, bond with my roommates too much. Boarders from the other rooms, whom they just met, are even closer to them. WTF! I feel so left out. It seems that I am JUST HERE. I am here to sleep. I really want to get closer to them. But how? I'm a corps man. I don't have the time. They say that it's good. I experience things other people will never experience. But these experiences are never seen by other people. And the experiences I miss is right in front of me. Shouting at me. I just can't be there. This really sucks. Sucks for me. I don't like these. I want the extrovert me. I want to make some noise and be loud and nobody cares. I miss myself. It seems that some part of me are missing. It seems that I am so incomplete. I feel left out. I feel incomplete. I miss the civilian life. I WANT THE CAREFREE, LOUD, NOISY FRANZ XAVIER C. FELICIANO  

This Wicked Feeling(Just Like Before)

Oh yeah. Freshmen in College. New life. New Beginning. New everything. And fool of me to expect to have a new love life. Its been a year or two since I got into somehow, I really don't know if I can call it like that, a RELATIONSHIP. Oh that Junior Year. And I just can't help myself and I don't know why I keep on remembering and comparing what is happening now to what happened back then. Yes, there maybe be some similarities but who am I to say that it will be the same just like before. Well, who won't. There are just too many similarities. First, I was first struck by her beauty- her white skin,  her long hair her cute smile and I find her physical appearance so perfect just like before. Next, she was liked by so many. My block  mates want to court her, and so do I just like before.  Another is I find it so hard to approach and start a conversation with her just like before. And I am so afraid to tell her how I feel towards, about and to her just like before. But unlike before, my friends are rooting for me. I got so many free time which I can give to a special someone. And I feel so confident about what I am doing and planning to do, which is the exact opposite to what is happening now. My friends are helping another friend of mine to court her. I am so busy being the lowest class in the UST-GCC which takes most of my free time. And I am so afraid to be rejected and/or thing to end up just like before. I am just not sure of myself.  Will I wait for some quite some time before I tell her how I feel just like before? What if, unlike before, she give in to "them"? One more thing, though it is still uncertain,will I or am I really willing to join a cruel game of love when a good friend of mine is involve? Oh this wicked feeling. I thought it is great that finally my heart beat to another, a new girl. But why am I feeling this way. I feel wanting to quit to something that I haven't tried or hasn't started. I feel so uncertain. I feel... I don't know. I really really don't know how and what should I feel. I really don't like what is happening to me. OH THIS WICKED FEELING.

THE FOLLOWING POSTS!

okay the 2 previous post were just a copy-paste of my articles in my Senior Year in High School. the next posts will be also articles/blogs which I wrote during the first semester of AY2011-2012. ENJOY!:D

CAT 2010-2011

 “Being an officer is an obligation and not a position.” These are words we’ve read from a message given to us by a special senior of ours. Let’s just call her Ma’am At Ease. Indeed our training was never easy but all the hard work paid off. We have proven something we never expected we can do. As a matter of fact, I would like to share everything that happened in our training. But as someone who has undergone training would say, “Sir what you see, what you hear, when you go, leave it here, Sir.” Ten months have passed. Ten months of service to our dear IJA. We deal with different students of our school- the disciplined ones and the special ones. Checking their bags, raising or waving the Philippine flag, asking our schoolmates to go back to their classrooms or fall in line, guiding them to their places during school activities, getting angry to those not following school rules, washing waxed hair and many more.  The stress, the pressure we’ve felt while doing such is not what matters, it is the fun we had and the reality that we are doing it for the welfare of the students.

                One of the great things of being an officer is that we are given the chance to show our learning during the training. The CAT Presentation. "The different riffle executions, different facings and fancies, different exhibition. Without bragging or anything, we've had the least time and least interest to practice. We've had the least chance to bond with each other. We've had the shortest minutes of dance number. Yet this is what happened, NEWLY PAINTED RIFLES, NEWLY ADDED RIFLE EXECUTIONS, PERFECT INTRODUCTIONS, WE ARE MARCHING SYNCHRONIZED AND WE LOOKED GREAT WHEN MDME. BUENAOBRA ACQUAINTED EACH OF US, CLOCKWISE DRILLS, PERFECT TIMINGS. We all know why these happened, 'coz we are not assuming! And God is our armour all throughout! Those prayers made us really blessed!"(Angela Joy Rafol) 

                All the hard works paid off and the sweats were replaced by fun. And in behalf of the CAT officers 2010-2011, I, the Bravo Company Commander would like to say “Sir thank you Sir”, “Ma’am thank you Ma’am” to all of our schoolmates, teachers and staff especially to our great commandant, Mr Bernardo Narvaez, our seniors and of course to the one who made it all possible, our Almighty Father.

                Now all I have to say is: “I am one but not the only one” Congratulations Co-officers! Good Luck CAT aspirants and please keep this in mind, the most important General Order is “TO BRING SOMETHING GOOD FOR HUMANITY”. THANK YOU INFANT JESUS ACADEMY!

tuu.sii 2007-2008

My second year life is unique

It is fun and very astig

Nothing like any other years

Because I found very good peers

Adviser-Ms Rhea Mamaki

Long intro ibinigay sa ‘min

Mayroong isang nasabi na tumatak sa isip

Samurai sword kanyang pagmamay-ari

Di tulad ng ibang sekyson

First day sobrang ingay namin

Teachers iisa naisip

Sa 2C ‘di uso discipline

Isang bagay kung bakit kami ay iba

Bilang ng officers ay hindi lima

Di ko na sambitin dalawang SBC

Donna Elzee, Carissa, Jen, Lalaine, Faith officer ng 2C

Plano bale naming magkaroon ng paluwagan

Pero nagpag-alaman ito’y pinagbabawalan

Kaya Lalaine, WMCC namin

Utangan ng klase at si Ric ang nasa top of the list

Oh I remember one fun game

Calling classmates with their second name

Elzee, Clarisse, Philip at Xavier

Mitchelle, Maxine, Rhon at Eleazer

Isa pang bagay na nagpapasaya sa amin

Kanta ng SecondHand Serenade peyborit namin

Because tonight will be the night that I will FALL FOR YOU

Please don’t tell me that I’m the only one that’s VULNERABLE

Dahil kantahan hilig namin

Fall for you lyrics pinaltan

Because tonight will be the shining morning fall for you

One life sharing in love

Seating arrangement pwedeng magrequest

Kaya seatmate ko bahagya ng iisa

Joice Clarise Martinez Sandejas

Best seatmate; best companion

At kahit periodic test enjoy pa rin

Hindi nakakapressure at relax pa rin

Karl and company, Buban and empire

Saway ng guro sa grupong ubod ng ingay

Pero isa sa higit kong ipagmamalaki

Pagkakaibigang hindi kumukupas

Samahang pang habang buhay

Pinagtibay ng bukas na puso at totoong dila

Isang makabuluhang taon aking naransan

Isang taong pinuno ng saya

Kaya salamat kaibigan

Salamat 2C Katarungan